There was a day she realized what she wanted, and that what she wanted while some might find it old fashioned, outdated, or just plain silly, was still a good thing. There was a moment she understood that she was totally capable of being alone, of living on her own, doing things alone...but that for her specifically, this was not how it was supposed to be. She understood that the yearning she felt deep within was a good thing...that her spirit called out not because it was incomplete, but because she has so much to share.
What she wants is what she feels society scoffs at these days. One man, one woman, in a monogamous relationship that is bound by law. How completely outdated, right? WRONG! She does not desire something that is wrong, or even bad for her. She just desires something that is out of fashion these days. The yearning comes in when she sees that according to societal standards, she's lacking in surface areas. She's overweight. She never got a college degree. And, she looks at the possibility of love, as opposed to laughing at the entire concept.
She is competent. Smart. And so very tired of wasting moments she feels she could and should be sharing. Yet still, she waits. She anticipates. And on nights like this, she wonders. Does she hope in vain? Will it ever happen? She finds that her only job is to be ready for it to happen. And in the interim, live her life day by day, changing, growing, and always becoming more of what that one man will find irresistible...herself.
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