It's Been A While

There are times in life when even as a person who loves to express themselves via the written word...words fail. Yes, it's been a while. In that while, life's been zipping past at an alarming rate. No, no quicker than normal, but the older I get, the more aware I become that as a younger woman, I lulled myself in to believing I had all the time in the world. Trite as it might sound, it's still true-I feel I blinked, and twenty-odd years passed, with me be almost unaware.
Even within the confines of this writing space-five years have passed since I first posted under this blog title. It's the eve of my fifty-fifth birthday. Which is either young, old, or just about right, depending on your perspective. I find it tough to look at the juxtaposition of this being the oldest I've ever been, and the youngest I'll ever be from this point on. I see and count the many blessings in my life, and I'm filled with awe and wonder at the graciousness the Creator I believe in has showered upon me. I'm fairly healthy, I have a job that, while stress-filled, I really like. I have friends and family. I have a good life.
In the midst of the chaos around me, with things such as the looming presidential election, the challenge it's become to find one's place in this world without fear of recrimination/offending someone else, and the daily drudgery of paying bills and making a budget work, there's a peace. A knowing. An understanding that I am where I am supposed to be, doing what I am supposed to be doing, and waiting expectantly for whatever comes next. Five years ago, as I typed my first, tentative sentences under this banner, I could not have dreamed I'd be where I am today. For me, that just proves that while we may have goals, desires, dreams, and wishes, we are often blessed beyond the narrow scope of our own vision.
I write this mostly for myself-to remind myself that I should be ever-grateful, ever-watchful, and ever-aware of how life can turn on a dime. I can't and won't pretend to know what may lie ahead. All I know is that my life has been filled with moments so sweet, minutes so precious, friendship so dear, that while I may be impatient in the current moment, I just need to remind myself of how lucky I am, how well I've been provided for, and how trust is vital to moving forward.
I have no clue if I'll still be sending out missives via this outlet five years hence, but I'm filled with hope and expectation anyway to be able to look back and see the many positive things that will be present in my life then, which I couldn't even form in to words in this moment.
Growing older has helped me understand that phrase-"Live your life on purpose." That's my goal, the aim of my heart, and what I aspire to do. Thanks for hanging with me as I turn each new corner, scale each mountain, and unwrap each unexpected gift. If you're reading this-I love you. You matter to me, and I'm glad you're in my life. You are part of what makes my life worthwhile!